As a child like many others I was too curious to know who created this world and who is controlling it. How the birth and death timings are decided and how our sufferings or happiness takes shape. There were so many questions but no clear answers marked the childhood.
With knowledge level at those years-- I easily started believing the thoughts shared with me by seniors. I used to believe that there is a major Gods who are working in different departments like to put to birth, to ensure growth and to give a death call. These God have got personal account of each individual with minute details. Accordingly they decide happiness or misery of person concerned. They can hear prayers and worship made to them and they can issue orders which can reduce one's sufferings and can grant wishes for happy times. In short we humans are just like puppet controlled by heavenly Gods.
These God are residing in blue sky above us and looking all our actions-small or big. They can take birth on this planet whenever needed or depute their representatives to guide human in bad times.
Similarly different intellectual levels of individuals, different people with financial position-some are begging for two time meals while others are worried for size of wealth created and it's protection. All these contradictions used to create questions in my mind. Like why God can be partial for his own creatures-? Why there can be deaths in stampede at holy places, accidents to buses used to visit pilgrim places ,killings in school or public places by bombs ,killing of hens or fishes for food, dropping atom bombs on so called enemy country and so on. All the inputs were too confusing but are stayed with me
Why God with all his power fails to protect own innocent products- ?Why there are earthquakes, floods and droughts? Why all of living objects not showing value of life for other living ones- ? If God is there who created him-? Whether such creator was super God. The search for mystery behind the curtain was going on. But the question of first remains unanswered all time until I was connected with true
These God are residing in blue sky above us and looking all our actions-small or big. They can take birth on this planet whenever needed or depute their representatives to guide human in bad times.
This was general theory fixed in my mind from childhood based on various stories, Hindi films and discussions with age group friends.
As a child I was fascinated by beautiful color sheds of peacock, big
oceans Sun-it's power of heat and light, Moon, stars. milky ways, Sky, different sizes of animals from tiny ant to king size big elephant.Similarly different intellectual levels of individuals, different people with financial position-some are begging for two time meals while others are worried for size of wealth created and it's protection. All these contradictions used to create questions in my mind. Like why God can be partial for his own creatures-? Why there can be deaths in stampede at holy places, accidents to buses used to visit pilgrim places ,killings in school or public places by bombs ,killing of hens or fishes for food, dropping atom bombs on so called enemy country and so on. All the inputs were too confusing but are stayed with me
Why God with all his power fails to protect own innocent products- ?Why there are earthquakes, floods and droughts? Why all of living objects not showing value of life for other living ones- ? If God is there who created him-? Whether such creator was super God. The search for mystery behind the curtain was going on. But the question of first remains unanswered all time until I was connected with true
Jainism. Now the suspense came to finite end. Doubts got melted. I got introduction to Karma throty from Gurudeo.Gurudeo asked me to read Aagam and intoduced to this powerful master behind curtain.
With passage of time and mixed experiences given by life created challenges to my basic faith. Some incurable deceases for close ones, young widow in family, sudden change in economic conditions from rich to poor and so many other things made me to rethink my faith. Slowly my basic faith was shattered. I turned to study all religious theories available. At last I concluded that Controlling God is a man made concept for providing psychological strength to us or oneself. Reality is something different. To discover it more study was needed
Everyone want some point of shelter and blame some one else for his actions and results. This necessity created God concept. Only one good thing done by this concept was that it created some sense of fear in some people engaged in evil deeds and made them little civil. In general, human tried to behave rationally unless is being marked and overtaken by greed and jealousy. It can take evil out of him.
With passage of time and mixed experiences given by life created challenges to my basic faith. Some incurable deceases for close ones, young widow in family, sudden change in economic conditions from rich to poor and so many other things made me to rethink my faith. Slowly my basic faith was shattered. I turned to study all religious theories available. At last I concluded that Controlling God is a man made concept for providing psychological strength to us or oneself. Reality is something different. To discover it more study was needed
Everyone want some point of shelter and blame some one else for his actions and results. This necessity created God concept. Only one good thing done by this concept was that it created some sense of fear in some people engaged in evil deeds and made them little civil. In general, human tried to behave rationally unless is being marked and overtaken by greed and jealousy. It can take evil out of him.
With study of Jainism the Karma theory gave the answer for all the disparities. It told that there is no controlling God but only guiding God free from love and hate having crystal clear soul. He guide one for being good human and to attain salvation. The Universe's nature is permanent and not confined to Earth only. It has no beginning nor end. It was there, it is there and will be there for ever, This nature is called Anaadi Annat. Anandi means without the beginning it mean
that it will be for ever. Slowly I started to give up wrong Mittyatva.
There are set rules for smooth operations of total Universe such as gravity, nature cycles is called as Science. Total things being non living take care of it's own. All contents of Jainism found logical.
Even we will be there in one or another form for ever till we get the salvation. Only our residing place and form of body will change. The 8 Karmas and soul are shaping present and future of all living things, Jainism helped me to clear all doubts and to provide path for salvation. It also taught to care about Karmas. Unless one believe it,
there will be no answer for all confusion. Many thanks to Gurudeo.
Only pray to have only Jainism in all those births that I have yet to pass through till salvation. It is essential because then we can have correct faith. With it we will be able to cut life and death cycles.
JAI JINENDRA-------!!!----------JAI MAHAVEER---------------!!!.
that it will be for ever. Slowly I started to give up wrong Mittyatva.
There are set rules for smooth operations of total Universe such as gravity, nature cycles is called as Science. Total things being non living take care of it's own. All contents of Jainism found logical.
Only pray to have only Jainism in all those births that I have yet to pass through till salvation. It is essential because then we can have correct faith. With it we will be able to cut life and death cycles.
JAI JINENDRA-------!!!----------JAI MAHAVEER---------------!!!.
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